I'm a nerd about everything so of course I'll make this post.
I got up super early on Friday to go to St. Augustine. I went up to see my friend Mary and also to attend an Evening with the Gabels. Mary had to work for most of it, so I wanted to make sure and have time before she had to work to hang out. We basically chilled and looked at pictures. She went to work and I went to the show. I was super excited that Heather was finally having a show in FL. I've loved her work for years and years,but never got to see pieces in person besides the one's I've bought. I got their first so I got to walk around the boutique and look at everything. It's called Anchor Boutique and will soon make me broke. Such great stuff there.Laurel is super nice too. The Gabels arrive and they had their daughter with them. She was running all over the store. Super cute and super smart, her name is Evelyn. I was able to get a Wolf Mistress print which I absolutely love, so much that I got the shirt as well and some pins.Where to put all these pins?
Never thought I'd get asked my opinion on whether or not they should buy a goat's head, but Tom asked. That thing would be creepy in the middle of the night if you'd get up for some water, but it would be great in a guest room. I met Emily from the forum...at least I hope it's Emily, I'm terrible with names at first. We were in line by each other back in February. We had a nice chat which ended up about Fake Problems wherein a guy chimed in too about them and Chris D. Small world. I averted a disaster of a cooler breaking open. We all chipped in to clean up the water that came from everywhere! I kept showing people the different art Heather had out and the pricing, it was pretty funny.
The acoustic show was held in the alley out back. It was great. The sound was awesome and it was gorgeous night out. We had bags with candles for light. The crowd was one of the best. Made it super fun. I helped a girl out who I noticed batteries died. I was covering my flash so as not to blind everyone in this tiny alley and the results were awesome. I was told I didn't need photoshop and was a professional as a result! We heard some new songs that were fantastic. I really like "Black Me Out", it's just what I needed for what's going on. I aquired a guitar string which I'm making something out of. I wasn't going to do any video because I knew Tom was nervous, but I wasn't sure if Mary made it in time and Alecia couldn't come so I may have taken 2....Good thing because Mary didn't make it for the acoustic part. We ended up sitting on the little stage with her boyfriend talking music and crazy tales. We got some great pictures at the very end which mine was titled by Heather as "I spent all evening with the Gabels, fuck yeah!".
I asked Tom if anyone stole the set list yet and he said he stole them, this is one, but this is the real one and gave it to me aha. I love random things like that.
Then it was late night pizza and baggage before a short sleep and the drive back. I think Saint Augustine wants me to stay in St.Augustine because every time I leave it pours.
Sunday, December 19, 2010
I'm Done
Recently some straight up bs has occurred in this town. Someone had this idea to hook me up with their ex( ex as in from a divorce) and there's a kid involved. Don't get me wrong, kids can be awesome, I've just never seen myself as the parental type. This has drama all over it. I didn't go for it and am getting treated like I'm crazy. Really?! I'm the crazy one? Worst part is it was discussed behind my back and people actually agreed it was a sound idea. What a nightmare. And if I just end things I will start a chain reaction of people turning their backs on me regardless of the truth. I have the power to fuck everything up for me here. Would it really be that bad though? This area is toxic. Some great things are happening here now and there are some amazing people. I have a part I guess, but it's probably unnoticed.
I went out of town for a day for many reasons. To see a friend I never get to, to go to an awesome art show/acoustic show, to get away from the nonsense here. The entire time away was great. As soon as I got close to SWFL I became more and more anxious. I'm back in town and still pissed about the situation at hand. I guess my time here really does have to come to an end here. I can no longer grow as a person here. It's like this place is quicksand and I can never climb that vine out of it.
I went out of town for a day for many reasons. To see a friend I never get to, to go to an awesome art show/acoustic show, to get away from the nonsense here. The entire time away was great. As soon as I got close to SWFL I became more and more anxious. I'm back in town and still pissed about the situation at hand. I guess my time here really does have to come to an end here. I can no longer grow as a person here. It's like this place is quicksand and I can never climb that vine out of it.
Friday, June 4, 2010
On the matter of life, the universe and everything
I should have moved by now. I have the funds and half my things packed( the rest I am going through and hopefully clearing some out). New Jersey is just too expensive on your own. So I had to accept it, that I can't go. This was extremely hard. It made me sick to my stomach. Upon telling people a lot of them responded with " well I don't really care for NJ", without even realizing what they were saying. It's fine that they don't like NJ,they don't have to. But, I do! That's why I was planning on moving there until everything fell apart.
FL doesn't work for me. It never really did and never really will. It's hard to explain how every waking moment I just feel awkward and out of place here. Not just where I live, I have been all over the state and I feel nothing. I don't click with any of it. There's some awesome towns and really great people spread about, but I still have no connection. I'm not meant to be here ( a little a la Jack Shepard).
This got me thinking about other options. California has been in the back of my mind for a while now. Not that it has anything to do my decision making, but people have been agreeing and saying "go out there". I met some people from CA recently and they moved there from a far and love it there. How they described it was quite appealing. I then had a long conversation with an old school mate who just moved out there from here and we have the same mind set about here and how she went on about CA was quite appealing as well. I want to at some point go out there to check things out and if it feels right, I'm pretty much gone.
I wanted to have visited by now, but with the whole car situation right now, everything is up in the air. I can not plan anything. I'll more then likely go out there later on in the year as I have been in contact with Dan Smith out there about some tattoos. i can't wait!
Meanwhile I work 6 days a week and try not to let the snobs get to me. Come home to abusive alcoholics who are in denial, hooray! Every week here it seems like there is some new drama over nothing. Good times be in the middle of it all.
And yeah yeah, I've heard it all before. Only you can make a town better, get involved! But if no one really cares about what you're doing or contributing, how in the hell can you improve anything?!
If I want to get anywhere with my photography, which is what I went to school for, I have to get away from here. The club scene of Miami is not for me kids, not for me.
Eh. I don't even know where I am going with this anymore.
FL doesn't work for me. It never really did and never really will. It's hard to explain how every waking moment I just feel awkward and out of place here. Not just where I live, I have been all over the state and I feel nothing. I don't click with any of it. There's some awesome towns and really great people spread about, but I still have no connection. I'm not meant to be here ( a little a la Jack Shepard).
This got me thinking about other options. California has been in the back of my mind for a while now. Not that it has anything to do my decision making, but people have been agreeing and saying "go out there". I met some people from CA recently and they moved there from a far and love it there. How they described it was quite appealing. I then had a long conversation with an old school mate who just moved out there from here and we have the same mind set about here and how she went on about CA was quite appealing as well. I want to at some point go out there to check things out and if it feels right, I'm pretty much gone.
I wanted to have visited by now, but with the whole car situation right now, everything is up in the air. I can not plan anything. I'll more then likely go out there later on in the year as I have been in contact with Dan Smith out there about some tattoos. i can't wait!
Meanwhile I work 6 days a week and try not to let the snobs get to me. Come home to abusive alcoholics who are in denial, hooray! Every week here it seems like there is some new drama over nothing. Good times be in the middle of it all.
And yeah yeah, I've heard it all before. Only you can make a town better, get involved! But if no one really cares about what you're doing or contributing, how in the hell can you improve anything?!
If I want to get anywhere with my photography, which is what I went to school for, I have to get away from here. The club scene of Miami is not for me kids, not for me.
Eh. I don't even know where I am going with this anymore.
Thursday, May 27, 2010
On the matter of LOST
Yes LOST is only a t.v. show, but if you watched it, it became a part of you. We watched these characters for 6 crazy seasons and you grow attached to them. I rooted for them, cried for them, cheered for them...and occasionally couldn't wait for some to be axed * cough cough Shannon, Nikki and Paulo-who?*
Usually people cut these posts to not spoil, but eh no one really reads this anyways and the few who do have already seen the finale.
A tad bit ironic that the finale has the fans split over loving it or hating it. Kind of like Jacob and the Man in Black. Yes, I think THAT much into it :D
Now with this past season we had the side universe, which I enjoyed. i liked how everyone still ending up meeting one another and helping each other out, regardless of the plane crashing. And c'mon how great was it when Desmond gets his revenge on smokey! And the Richard episode was classic, CLASSIC!
The side universe in the finale was slightly different though. Everyone seemed content and more accepting to the events that were bringing them together, even if they didn't know at first.
Part of me kept yelling in my head, don't hurt Des! Desmond and Penny always!
I really liked seeing pretty much all the characters again...well maybe not Shannon, but it helped the storyline! Rose and Bernard! I love them! They're so content in basically their own little world with Vincent. Haha bring drama to us and we'll make sure you're fed before we kick you out!
Daniel playing piano with Charlie and Liam, um hell yes! of course I loved seeing Charlie again, I almost bawled when he remembered everything with Claire.
Sun and Jin too! their death was so sad,but sweet since they stayed together.
Awww and Juliet and Sawyer again! Too much to take in!
yes Frank lived! I kind of had a feeling he would, great character!
Even though Kate got annoying towards the end and a lot of people wanted her to die, it was sweet seeing the whole Jate storyline again.
Noble Jack, it was soo hard watching him slowly die, but what a brilliant ending! And the plane flying overhead. Really hard to hold back the tears when Vincent stayed with him.
I would love to see Hurley and Ben run the island! Great spin-off! number 1 and number 2!
it was nice knowing, with all the struggles and deaths and conflicts, that in the end some people did finally once and for all make it off the island to continue their lives. Richard FINALLY!!!!
And once their time was up on this Earth they all would be reunited again! Like the end of Titanic! But I loved that ending, both these endings!
love it or hate it, everyone is still talking about after the fact. Which was part of the intent! The creators wanted people to continue discussing it and making theories up after the final episode.
I'll have to watch it again to really let it all sink in.
I'm content with it. Everyone is going to have different expectations of it and opinions about it, but that's how it's always been.
I stay with Jacob on this one.
Usually people cut these posts to not spoil, but eh no one really reads this anyways and the few who do have already seen the finale.
A tad bit ironic that the finale has the fans split over loving it or hating it. Kind of like Jacob and the Man in Black. Yes, I think THAT much into it :D
Now with this past season we had the side universe, which I enjoyed. i liked how everyone still ending up meeting one another and helping each other out, regardless of the plane crashing. And c'mon how great was it when Desmond gets his revenge on smokey! And the Richard episode was classic, CLASSIC!
The side universe in the finale was slightly different though. Everyone seemed content and more accepting to the events that were bringing them together, even if they didn't know at first.
Part of me kept yelling in my head, don't hurt Des! Desmond and Penny always!
I really liked seeing pretty much all the characters again...well maybe not Shannon, but it helped the storyline! Rose and Bernard! I love them! They're so content in basically their own little world with Vincent. Haha bring drama to us and we'll make sure you're fed before we kick you out!
Daniel playing piano with Charlie and Liam, um hell yes! of course I loved seeing Charlie again, I almost bawled when he remembered everything with Claire.
Sun and Jin too! their death was so sad,but sweet since they stayed together.
Awww and Juliet and Sawyer again! Too much to take in!
yes Frank lived! I kind of had a feeling he would, great character!
Even though Kate got annoying towards the end and a lot of people wanted her to die, it was sweet seeing the whole Jate storyline again.
Noble Jack, it was soo hard watching him slowly die, but what a brilliant ending! And the plane flying overhead. Really hard to hold back the tears when Vincent stayed with him.
I would love to see Hurley and Ben run the island! Great spin-off! number 1 and number 2!
it was nice knowing, with all the struggles and deaths and conflicts, that in the end some people did finally once and for all make it off the island to continue their lives. Richard FINALLY!!!!
And once their time was up on this Earth they all would be reunited again! Like the end of Titanic! But I loved that ending, both these endings!
love it or hate it, everyone is still talking about after the fact. Which was part of the intent! The creators wanted people to continue discussing it and making theories up after the final episode.
I'll have to watch it again to really let it all sink in.
I'm content with it. Everyone is going to have different expectations of it and opinions about it, but that's how it's always been.
I stay with Jacob on this one.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
On the matter of death
This past Saturday evening, a guy I worked with passed away.
We all found out the next morning. His dad called my manager to let us know and told her all he could before breaking down, who could blame him. The cause is undetermined at this point. It happened sometime after dinner. He was only 44 and seemed in good health. He rode his bike to work everyday and always kept busy. He will be missed. Both his parents mentioned how he always liked going to work and how he enjoyed working with all of us. There was only 6 of us there. It's a really sad and weird situation. It's been hard letting it all sink in. We brought flowers and a card over to their house and are waiting for the service to be scheduled.
I've lost two grandparents. One when I was still pretty young, so I didn't really understand it all and we didn't have a chance to be close. The other one was injured at a nursing home and digressed way to soon. So again I wasn't able to be close with her. Of course i love my family and it was hard. It's different this time though. Here's someone whom I saw and talked to 5 times a week.
As the days pass it's becoming a little easier to accept,but then we come across notes at work or his numbers in the roladex.
This will be the first service I have gone to as well. With my grandfather we had a dinner, but again I was too young. With my grandmother, there was no service, my mum and aunt took their ashes to the mountains and spread them.
We all found out the next morning. His dad called my manager to let us know and told her all he could before breaking down, who could blame him. The cause is undetermined at this point. It happened sometime after dinner. He was only 44 and seemed in good health. He rode his bike to work everyday and always kept busy. He will be missed. Both his parents mentioned how he always liked going to work and how he enjoyed working with all of us. There was only 6 of us there. It's a really sad and weird situation. It's been hard letting it all sink in. We brought flowers and a card over to their house and are waiting for the service to be scheduled.
I've lost two grandparents. One when I was still pretty young, so I didn't really understand it all and we didn't have a chance to be close. The other one was injured at a nursing home and digressed way to soon. So again I wasn't able to be close with her. Of course i love my family and it was hard. It's different this time though. Here's someone whom I saw and talked to 5 times a week.
As the days pass it's becoming a little easier to accept,but then we come across notes at work or his numbers in the roladex.
This will be the first service I have gone to as well. With my grandfather we had a dinner, but again I was too young. With my grandmother, there was no service, my mum and aunt took their ashes to the mountains and spread them.
On the matter of drinking
have a lot of different things to write about that I have been meaning to. I'll start it off with something that happened today...work backwards in a way.
Funny how we overthink and obsess over the smallest actions.
At work we decided on getting some cheese sticks. we get them and my boss points out that the dipping sauce has beer in it. I don't drink so I made the remark that I don't drink and so I no longer want any of the sauce. The response from the two people who were there was it's not strong enough to get you drunk. i repeated that I don;t drink which is the reason as to why I don't want sauce with beer and one continued with "if that gets you drunk, then you shouldn't be drinking"...
Completely besides the point! And then went on about foods that are cooked with beer... some people like beer battered foods, I don't. But that's different most of the alcohol is burned out in the cooking process. This was sauce with it poured into it. Not cooked in at all. no there's not enough in it to make one drunk...but it's pretty close to drinking it.They just could not grasp why I didn't want something with beer in it.
Now, I'm no saint. Yes i have drank before. I won't deny it. But it is the second lowest I have been in my life. Not that I ever got drunk, or even tipsy. Nothing bad resulted from it. It's just that to me personally it's a low because of what it could have lead to,alcoholism runs in my family. And it's something I have to deal with everyday for the rest of my life.
People shouldn't by now, but they still blow my mind with the concepts they can't seem to grasp, no matter how much you try to clarify them.
Funny how we overthink and obsess over the smallest actions.
At work we decided on getting some cheese sticks. we get them and my boss points out that the dipping sauce has beer in it. I don't drink so I made the remark that I don't drink and so I no longer want any of the sauce. The response from the two people who were there was it's not strong enough to get you drunk. i repeated that I don;t drink which is the reason as to why I don't want sauce with beer and one continued with "if that gets you drunk, then you shouldn't be drinking"...
Completely besides the point! And then went on about foods that are cooked with beer... some people like beer battered foods, I don't. But that's different most of the alcohol is burned out in the cooking process. This was sauce with it poured into it. Not cooked in at all. no there's not enough in it to make one drunk...but it's pretty close to drinking it.They just could not grasp why I didn't want something with beer in it.
Now, I'm no saint. Yes i have drank before. I won't deny it. But it is the second lowest I have been in my life. Not that I ever got drunk, or even tipsy. Nothing bad resulted from it. It's just that to me personally it's a low because of what it could have lead to,alcoholism runs in my family. And it's something I have to deal with everyday for the rest of my life.
People shouldn't by now, but they still blow my mind with the concepts they can't seem to grasp, no matter how much you try to clarify them.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Records a go-go
yesterday was National Record Store Day! The closest one to where I live is 2 and half hours! I ended up going to one in Fort Lauderdale because Sloane Peterson was playing it! Also Tate's is not too far and I hadn't been there before. The main 2 rsd releases I was after were the Against Me! 7in and the mystery Beastie Boys 12in. I was able to get the AM!, but the Beasties sold out fast. I ended up by the end pf the day with7 12ins. and 5 7ins. for my listening enjoyment. Including a Jurassic 5 that has an acapella! oh and 4 cds, I keep forgetting this...maybe because it was Record store day!
Finally went to Tate's after hearing about it for the past 2 years. Walking in you die and come back to life. There is sooooooo much in there, it's hard to take in. A wonderful maze you wouldn't mind being lost in. I picked up 3 graphic novels and some randomsities from toys to bags to bat earrings!
Jo and Anthony were working and placed me as the Brigade super fan who bought the last shirt starting a battle royale :D
Tijuana Flats is an restaurant chain here where quite a few have been painted with murals and whatnot by my friend Justin. He ended up doing the one down the street from the record store. The 2 I have been to are incredible. his creative talent is inspiring.
The other main reason for Ft Lauderdale was Sloane and to see Chris since I don't get to see him too often since he moved to Miami. It was great catching up and his band was great. They're really fun to watch!
All in all records, comics, t-flats and music is not too shabby of a day!
Finally went to Tate's after hearing about it for the past 2 years. Walking in you die and come back to life. There is sooooooo much in there, it's hard to take in. A wonderful maze you wouldn't mind being lost in. I picked up 3 graphic novels and some randomsities from toys to bags to bat earrings!
Jo and Anthony were working and placed me as the Brigade super fan who bought the last shirt starting a battle royale :D
Tijuana Flats is an restaurant chain here where quite a few have been painted with murals and whatnot by my friend Justin. He ended up doing the one down the street from the record store. The 2 I have been to are incredible. his creative talent is inspiring.
The other main reason for Ft Lauderdale was Sloane and to see Chris since I don't get to see him too often since he moved to Miami. It was great catching up and his band was great. They're really fun to watch!
All in all records, comics, t-flats and music is not too shabby of a day!
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